I left my ex-husband

My ex-husband and I were married for 6 years....separated for 3 years...I saw signs when we first got together...we use to go to high school together...he graduated a year before me but, then...later, after we all graduated....he got married and had 5 children, they were not working out nether. I guest I was DESPERATE when I fell for him...he was divorce of course...but, later he started lying...and coming home late leaving me with the 3 sons that he had custody of ....then I thought back even on our 1st date....he was at his ex-in-laws house getting sloppy drunk....at that time I was about 28 years old....bought my 1st 2 bedroom house...had a new escort and my child care business...so, later I agreed for him and his boys to move in....we got married the next month...I already had one son........later, we had plan to have a baby....now, we do have 2 girls...3 yr old and a 9 yr old....he stayed on the same job that was not doing nothing for him or helping us period....he started coming home about 3am.....repeatly this kept happening...till I said well I am not going to nag him...I'll just give him more sex.....so that played out....both times when I would pregnant we would separated he would go to his parents house....he's a mama's boy any way.....finally we tried to get back together to make it work....then someone from his job started calling on our phone...I evenly lost my house, car, furniture every thing....we started having bad fights in front of the children this was verbally, mental, and physically,....he told lies to his family, friends, and the pastor, church members....right till this day they look at me crazy!!!!His children...always came between us....till one day I said enough was enough...I told him that I was leaving...he didn't believe me...till one day my children and I were gone....I was homeless with my children, we were living from pillar to post...my mother lived in a high rise....we lived with her for a minute..one bedroom packed like sardines....2 adults and 3 children....my baby was just 9 months old....I was a house wife...I had to stay at home for these children...his children needed a lot of guidance and they still didn't appreciate me....I tried to build a relationship with them...I don't know what their problem was....I really did love my ex-husband...I'm still healing.....but, I told him that God has someone else for me....I went and got my self together and still picking up the pieces of my life....I did had to learn to forgive..